Some asshole at a bar last night was incredibly rude to me, including calling me fat. Faith in humanity: lost.
Walking home alone crying after that, two nice people went out of their way to walk with me and make sure I got home safe. Faith in humanity: restored.
Thank you to all of the good people out there. As for the assholes, you’ll get what’s coming to you.
I just had a startling philosophical moment realizing something that, while I already know it, I haven’t been giving it the weight it deserves. Not to mention, the reason I had the thought is a little lame, but bear with me.
I was watching NCIS, one of my favorite TV shows. Two cars pulled up next to each other, the first man expecting to meet someone, and startled when the window of the other car rolled down revealing someone else inside. The second man then proceeded to shoot the first man in the chest.
All of this took about ten seconds. And it occurred to me how quickly and easily you can take a life. Just like that, a person–a whole human being with a life, a family, friends, memories, influences–gone. Forever.
Like I said, it’s not that this thought is new. I just had a sharp moment of clarity about life. Maybe it’s the anxiety flaring up, but I’m suddenly fearful for the lives of those that I love. I’m suddenly heartbroken for all of the people who lost someone recently–or not recently. Ever.
Life is fragile. But it’s all we have.
Just watched the documentary DMT: The Spirit Molecule on Netflix. Very interesting! I definitely recommend watching it. Whether or not you support psychedelic substances, the discussion about consciousness, life, and being is very mind-boggling.
“Why is it that, in the entire Western world, these substances that have been found to be so interesting by hundreds of cultures for thousands of years are prohibited? How did these cultures that consider themselves to be enlightened, democratic, and scientific get to declaring plants illegal? It can seem weird, but there is clearly something deep and revealing about the nature of these societies.”
— Jeremy Narby, PhD, anthropologist, DMT: The Spiritual Molecule
“Our society values alert, problem-solving consciousness, and it devalues all other states of consciousness. Any kind of consciousness that is not related to the production or consumption of material goods is stigmatized in our society today. Of course, we accept drunkenness—we allow people some brief respite from the material grind. A society that subscribes to that model is a society that is going to condemn states of consciousness that having nothing to do with the alert, problem-solving mentality, and if you go back to the 1960’s, when there was a tremendous upsurge of exploration of psychedelics, I would say that the huge backlash that followed that had to do with a fear on the part of the powers that be that if enough people went into those realms and those experiences, the very fabric of the society we have today would be picked apart and most importantly, those in power at the top would not be in power at the top anymore.”
— Graham Hancock, writer, DMT: The Spirit Molecule
If you’re on Weight Watchers like me, then check this website out: http://www.exercise4weightloss.com/weight-watchers-points.html
It has the Points Plus values for over 300 restaurants. It’s been so helpful in making the best choices when I go out to eat with friends or have to grab some fast food!
You guys, I threw away my bathroom trash can… I was emptying it into a big trash bag, and apparently I just put the whole thing in there… and threw it in the dumpster… WHAT. THIS IS MY LIFE.
Midway, a film by Chris Jordan
It’s so easy to ignore our impact on the world; I do it all the time. But we have to make changes. Please take a few minutes to watch this trailer. It’s heartbreaking and a little disturbing, but we need to see these images to inspire change.
“Using spare narration and stunning imagery, Chris Jordan’s feature film Midway explores the plight of Laysan albatross plagued by the ingestion of our plastic trash. Both elegy and warning, the film explores the interconnectedness of species, with the albatross on Midway as a mirror of our humanity.”
Midway Atoll is a small island, or atoll, in the Pacific Ocean, roughly halfway between North America and Asia, as the name suggests. Even 2,000 miles from the nearest continent, its only inhabitants, the albatross, are struggling to survive due to human pollution.
Check out the Midway film project on YouTube (Midway Journey) and at their website, midwayfilm.com.
Like lullabies you are
Forever in my mind.
I see you in all
The pieces in my life.
Though you weren’t mine,
You were my first love.I wanted to go away with you,
And I will leave all my troubles here.
I wanted to run away with you,
And I will bring all my dreams and fears.
One of those silly Internet surveys (again), because I’m bored (again).
One of the most fascinating and important quotes I’ve ever read:
People think a soulmate is your perfect fit, and that’s what everyone wants. But a true soulmate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that is holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life.
A true soulmate is probably the most important person you’ll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soulmate forever? Nah. Too painful. Soulmates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave.
A soulmate’s purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life, then introduce you to your spiritual master.
Elizabeth Gilbert, Eat, Pray, Love
Today has been a lazy day, even though it shouldn’t be. I took Vyvanse this morning in order to accomplish things today, and I’ve managed to stay in my bed thus far, on the Internet. I’m too good at being lazy for my own good.
